it had all the potential of being a typically lazy wintry warm Sunday . with the girl-friend staying over the last night and waking me up in the morning when she had to leave.. with me crawling back in warp speed to be under the warm and cozy blankets in my dark and cosy room for a second installment of sleep.. it had the making of an ideal holiday-mode Sunday..
but for the 'imperfections'.. coz. this sunday involved me donning the chef's hat--cooking for my parent's homecoming! cleaning the flat.. keeping everything in order.. trying to match Mamma's standard of being 'clean' in the kitchen, though i have a nagging feel that it may just not be enough still! *never too good for Mamma when it comes to being clean in the kitchen* loading the fridge with food.. and the usual regular (which is not so regular for me) 'household' chores.. and yeah, i'm proud of myself.. i pulled it off pretty satisfactorily..
but for the 'imperfections'.. this day happens to hold a somewhat special significance.. and for some strange reasons, i want the association.. yet, too proud to ask.. narcissist, you see.. and once a narcissist, always one.. so, waiting doesnt suit me too.. so, just the me, saying out 'ok happy budday'..
but for the 'imperfections'.. i miss my soul sister.. i miss her.. miss being with her.. miss her damned face.. and yes, i always miss her.. nothing new in that.. but this missing her kinda took a turn for the worse after she came to see me last month.. *sob!* and its when even the technology of whatsapp, skype, gmail and fb too doesn't help..*sigh!*
but for the 'imperfections'.. and i miss Meano today.. very strange, because, no real reason whatsoever for me to miss Meano.. (or, is there? that i dunno about, or i'm in denial?) and well, narcissist part existing.. i buzzed him, 'coz the yearning for him was way too strong, and well, now its Meano's turn to buzz back.. so, it will be good if he does.. and if he doesn't, then, i'll make it alright with me in sometime.. which i know i will.. these are just temporary momentarily lapse of composure..
but for the 'imperfections'.. yeah.. too many of them.. and maybe, that's what makes it all so exciting..
narcissist part of course holds.. and that is beyond the realm of any imperfections, whatsoever!
i just hope, it ain't too long before i'm back my usual self..
because, i want this 13 to rock for me! and i do get this feel at times (within) that it will.. but, i want it in tangibles.. at least for the starters.. and i know, rest everything (yes, EVERY-fuckin'-THING) will fall in its place..
so yeah, when all these are playing for a place in your mind, it can never be an ordinary holiday mode wintry Sunday..
a definitely not-so-ordinary Sunday..27.1.13.
but for the 'imperfections'.. coz. this sunday involved me donning the chef's hat--cooking for my parent's homecoming! cleaning the flat.. keeping everything in order.. trying to match Mamma's standard of being 'clean' in the kitchen, though i have a nagging feel that it may just not be enough still! *never too good for Mamma when it comes to being clean in the kitchen* loading the fridge with food.. and the usual regular (which is not so regular for me) 'household' chores.. and yeah, i'm proud of myself.. i pulled it off pretty satisfactorily..
but for the 'imperfections'.. this day happens to hold a somewhat special significance.. and for some strange reasons, i want the association.. yet, too proud to ask.. narcissist, you see.. and once a narcissist, always one.. so, waiting doesnt suit me too.. so, just the me, saying out 'ok happy budday'..
but for the 'imperfections'.. i miss my soul sister.. i miss her.. miss being with her.. miss her damned face.. and yes, i always miss her.. nothing new in that.. but this missing her kinda took a turn for the worse after she came to see me last month.. *sob!* and its when even the technology of whatsapp, skype, gmail and fb too doesn't help..*sigh!*
but for the 'imperfections'.. and i miss Meano today.. very strange, because, no real reason whatsoever for me to miss Meano.. (or, is there? that i dunno about, or i'm in denial?) and well, narcissist part existing.. i buzzed him, 'coz the yearning for him was way too strong, and well, now its Meano's turn to buzz back.. so, it will be good if he does.. and if he doesn't, then, i'll make it alright with me in sometime.. which i know i will.. these are just temporary momentarily lapse of composure..
but for the 'imperfections'.. yeah.. too many of them.. and maybe, that's what makes it all so exciting..
narcissist part of course holds.. and that is beyond the realm of any imperfections, whatsoever!
i just hope, it ain't too long before i'm back my usual self..
because, i want this 13 to rock for me! and i do get this feel at times (within) that it will.. but, i want it in tangibles.. at least for the starters.. and i know, rest everything (yes, EVERY-fuckin'-THING) will fall in its place..
so yeah, when all these are playing for a place in your mind, it can never be an ordinary holiday mode wintry Sunday..
a definitely not-so-ordinary Sunday..27.1.13.
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