im at a serious loss of everything.. words, emotions, feelings, senses, realisations, et al.... everything.. have no clue abt the keyboards as well.. just furiously striking on them..

he did put it very rightly.. we dun know any retracing.. and that said, even ending doesnt come easy to us.. but once its reached, it surely is the termination.. everything involved in it dies.. and thats inclusive of all the years invested in forming what was there, all the feelings vested, all the smiles shared and all the tears cries.. you just dun feel anything after that..

but i ask him now, "if you were in my place, would you also do what im doing? or would you have begged to "differ"? for this once?" but as its "me" in this place right now, i guess, its only "me" who has to take the call.. "maybe, someday (oneday), if you know abt it (if you may), you'll also agree.."and thats the only reassurance that i carry with me, as i take a baby step forward towards retracing..