oh damn! holy shit! fuckin' bloody ass!!!!!! n to say that im thoroughly embarassed, will be to say the least. YESH!
n to think of it, never, as in NEVER  never, did i ever think, (or even imagine in my most of the averagely n exceedingly wild-wilder-wildest dreams) that there WILL be someone (unfortunately) who will be so intersted in folllowing my useless crap n truck-load of banter! *ohmigawd!!!!!!!*
but then-whoa!!!-im, (as always, well, at least as "most-of-the-times-types-'always')proved wrong! n how so! n so, imagine the jolt that i recieve when i logged on to find that there was one follower listed! (n i'll save the trouble of yours to go through my bantering...hell no... i cant..gosh!!! im sooooooo embarassed!!!!!)

well, so not quite a very 'aupicious' start to the morning..n im paranoid of whats in store for me in the hours to unfold.. :( coz, the last couple of days, well, they're not exactly being 'pretty'.. many reasons, but then, maybe, all reasons being just the different variants of one big simplistically complicated reason. or maybe, its just me..
heck!

so, whatever it is, i dunno what it is.. so that sucks.. n so does my mood.
p.s. :
it was sunday..just the last one..you said something..n i was J..maybe it was stupid (for me to be J?! well, maybe not!)..but maybe, it wasnt so stupid enough of it, coz it did get me real J.. n i was at my crankiest best..(gradually tending towards to being crankiest worst)..i wanted to get it all out on you..n yet remain incognitu..n that was the difficult part..n all i could manage was to 'wrestle' with you, n the only satisfaction was that i felled you! (yesh!) *i genuinely bow down to the creator of that 'wunnerful' application*
n later on, while 'speaking', i was definitely not 'alryt'..n maybe you realised..some not-so-good vibes..
(:( damn!).. but you know what warmed up to me? you understood, n you just let me be..n that was the sole gesture on your part, that warmed up to me.. *:gushing!*
n im sorry.. maybe, its just that messed up stuffs playing a ball inside me ryt now..n i hopefully manage to sort it all out sooner.. coz amidst all these 'hard-stuffs' that i portray, there've been plenty of 'silent tears' making their way out.. n you'll never know.. (or maybe, i'll never know, if you know)..