Mirror be damned! :'(

yes.. i had to blurt it all out yesterday.. the stupid damned me.. and all it required was my Mirror to come up with the very same views and questions, which i thought i am well able to handle when asked by my (own) self.. well, in this case, the phenomenon of "myself" happened to differ only to the point where the "physical" state of being differed.. yes.. the case of two different bodies and two sets of different organs.. with identical pairs of wiring.. and yes, it freaks me out.. it shakes me beyond any grounding.. try howsoever hard i may, i cant shoo it off.. neither can i stop clinging on to it.. complete paradox..

but even then, the proud that i am, and as maybe by now, known by the Mirror, i'll hold my ground.. and i think i can allow, albeit a bit reluctantly, my period of breaking down.. when i can allow myself to sit down in a corner of my room and cry.. or to take off from the house on to the street under the blue-black sky.. and yes, maybe, yesterday was not a good time.. but i'm glad that even then, i dint "bare it all".. even though, secretly i know, that minute glimpse was enough for my Mirror to know all that the Mirror wanted to know..

yes, i'll always be all smiles to all.. but for me, i will always know, what lies beneath that smile..

yes, whoever said it, said it true.. you should never look in the eyes of a dancer.. they can never lie.. and i only hope, that you dun stare into my eyes.. because, i can't lie.. can never lie to my Mirror..