its somewhat strange that i find, when offlate, i feel most of my thoughts to wander off in a particular direction and time frame..featuring mostly two very specific people.. and then i realise the true worth of the saying "an idle mind is a devil's workshop"..
yesteday was one such nyt, when i had the entire night to myself.. and ask me what was i doing? i danced.. yes. i danced to my heart's content.. dancing.. felt liberating.. and the end of i dunno how many hrs, i could feel the sweat trickling down my back, the sweet ache of the back muscles, the blunt throbbing of the shoulders, and it all felt like------> home! yes.. it felt, as if i'm at a place, where i trully belong.. where no answers required n no questions asked.. n maybe, i even understood what he meant when he'd told me that he feels "home" when he smells the whiff of spirit solution and alcohol in the air, much to my scoffing then.. which again brings my thought to one of the particular vertical..and almost immediately it goes to the another vertical, which almost like a reflex action pulls me back tot he ground.. (both exhibiting the "twin" characteristics are not much of a help either)..
today, in the afternoon, while sifting through my usual huge archives of photos, i realised that courtesy that unassuming person, i have actually ended up having a couple of the most candid ever shots featuring me and him.. n needless to say, they are the favs! and yet again, there exists this wierd hesitation of approaching..
and now the grounding effect, well, i dunno what i'll do without it.. that is my oxygen.. my everyday "life".. yes, n on the days where the other feeling gets more overwhelming, i desperately wish for my grounding force to come and take me away.. coz, i know thats where i wanna be, but momentarily, this tempest is tempting me..
so, i dunno what i have blabbered.. but im glad having done that.. but strangely enough, the one vertical, tempest it might be to me, but for some wierd reasons it had been successful enough in giving it an image of calm n anchor to the person who im answerable to at this moment.. you call it strange? well, i daresay, i feel the need for my "grounding force" all the more.
p.s. but i have no clue regarding what should be my apt actions abt the sweetest memories that i have of the nights of 15th, 17th, 20th, 23rd.. they are in truest essence-----> PRICELESS!
yesteday was one such nyt, when i had the entire night to myself.. and ask me what was i doing? i danced.. yes. i danced to my heart's content.. dancing.. felt liberating.. and the end of i dunno how many hrs, i could feel the sweat trickling down my back, the sweet ache of the back muscles, the blunt throbbing of the shoulders, and it all felt like------> home! yes.. it felt, as if i'm at a place, where i trully belong.. where no answers required n no questions asked.. n maybe, i even understood what he meant when he'd told me that he feels "home" when he smells the whiff of spirit solution and alcohol in the air, much to my scoffing then.. which again brings my thought to one of the particular vertical..and almost immediately it goes to the another vertical, which almost like a reflex action pulls me back tot he ground.. (both exhibiting the "twin" characteristics are not much of a help either)..
today, in the afternoon, while sifting through my usual huge archives of photos, i realised that courtesy that unassuming person, i have actually ended up having a couple of the most candid ever shots featuring me and him.. n needless to say, they are the favs! and yet again, there exists this wierd hesitation of approaching..
and now the grounding effect, well, i dunno what i'll do without it.. that is my oxygen.. my everyday "life".. yes, n on the days where the other feeling gets more overwhelming, i desperately wish for my grounding force to come and take me away.. coz, i know thats where i wanna be, but momentarily, this tempest is tempting me..
so, i dunno what i have blabbered.. but im glad having done that.. but strangely enough, the one vertical, tempest it might be to me, but for some wierd reasons it had been successful enough in giving it an image of calm n anchor to the person who im answerable to at this moment.. you call it strange? well, i daresay, i feel the need for my "grounding force" all the more.
p.s. but i have no clue regarding what should be my apt actions abt the sweetest memories that i have of the nights of 15th, 17th, 20th, 23rd.. they are in truest essence-----> PRICELESS!
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