5.12.2010

its been three days..today..n yet, it doesnt seem to hold any significance.. as if, everything has ceased to have any sorta impact on me..

but, if this the case be, then

1. why did i cry today while listening to "love story?? well, NO. there's nothing about the song that'll make me cry, in general..its a nice peppy song by taylor swift..got a nice feel to it..good music..n rythm too.. but then, stil.. the question persists--why did tears roll down my cheeks when that precise song was on? *curious n definitely intrigued*
2. why did i find a certain song to be so perfectly in-tune with a "certain specific phenomenon", n to the extent that just by altering a few numbers n months, it perfectly describes that "certain specific phenomenon", apt to the T?
3. "who can say when the roads meet, that love might be, in your heart.."---- n why this line (specifically) is causing so much of a soul-searching for me to do? agreed, it was absolutely a chance meeting, a fact i'll never deny, n probably will always cherish..but crossing of roads, n then the subsequent "love in your heart"???? why am i drawing parallel to this "specific" lines over-n-over again?! *sigh!*
4. n for some really wierd reason, the term "BESTIE" never sounded so hollow ever, before..but, strangely though, it does now..n it doesnt even have a good ring to it either..

and lastly, i dun have any words of my own, but i find a verse to be so trully echoing my "feelings"...

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me...

yes..it holds TRUE.. in every word..every syllable..every feel..every essence..
it IS true.