20.3.11

n so, another year goes by..n its again a full circle..
yes.. its the second holi..for "us"(sic)..n looking back, today it feels strange.. even alien to myself.. coz, all said and done, still there exists this feeling of astonishment.. i really made it this far! (whoa)
and i still recollect in all details the "exchanges" on this day, last year... :) yes, in more ways than one, it was special to me.. you made it special.. the day prior to dhuleti, n then the follow up to dhuleti.. it was really unique, in all ways.. n i loved it..
n fast forward to this year, its the same day.. n yesterday, you brought back fond moments.. of yesteryear :)
n today, maybe, it wont be the same as it was last year.. but still, a hope glimmers that it will be something unique, in its own uniquely sweet way..
n i wait for it..:)

happy holi, ****!

Poets of the Fall - Late Goodbye

28.2.2011

"there will be a lot of mystery in your love life in january. and in all probablity you are currently involved in a passionate affair. but february shows the possibility of you getting tempted and blackmailed into a relationship, probably by a mysterious lover. however, march to may is a very romantic period and in the last week of april, you may fall in love while travelling. or will travel to meet your loved one. possibilities of love at the workplace are bright in may-june."
-dated 9th january,2011.

the first time i read it, i dint realise what it is supposed to convey.. reading it the second time over, i couldnt stop laughing.. and that induced me for a third read.. n i was gushing.. coz, some stuffs were (almost) accurate n some were hilarious.. n the prospective probablity and/or possibility of them occuring was all the more hilarious..
its two months down now.. n so i thought (due to certain building up of circumstantial situations) lemme just go back to it, again.

"passionate love affair" in january.. well, not very sure about that one.. but for some reason, this "february" is eerily accurate.."mysterious lover"--the identity is scary.. n im glad that "february" is over today.. n tomorrow onwards, i'll be looking at 'a very romantic period' march..

and as of today, there is some amount of indication of "travel" in the last week of april, so that again keeps the possibility of "in the last week of april, you may fall in love while travelling. or will travel to meet your loved one."

and the one thing to cheer me up in thae above stuff is : "possibilities of love at the workplace are bright in may-june" not because of the "love" aspect.. but because of the workplace aspect!

happy valentine's day

yeah.. Happy Valentine's Day :) technically its a lil bit late.. an hr past midnyt n into the next day.. but it can still hold true.. Valentine's, after all! coz, even with our saying vehemently that "everyday is a valentine's day", c'mon, you oughtta be honest on this one, we dun actually n really mean that n neither do we put that into practice everyday (literally speaking!)

n so, the above wishing n greeting n acknowledging holds true.. :) a lil delay can be considered in all the good spirits! :-D

n how it starts? well, before i get down accounting the details, one tiny (in)significant bit of trivia.. the starting n the finishing were (with) the same involvees! (confession: i made up this term..cudnt come up with anything else..my bad!) so, the starting..well, 13th feb,2011..2345 hrs.. n i so badly wanted to continue the "talking" for at least another 15 mins.. (n all credits to me that i actually managed to stretch it that far from 2315, when it first showed the signs of 'signing off!').. but that was not to be.. so, it was all me by myself..but ofcourse, nothing was stopping me from sending my first wish.. n so, it began.. a stark opposite of how it was just 365 days back! ;) n i had my HIMYM for company :) well, the phone did ring.. n i was not really very keen on that conversation.. so, a quick n polite wrap up on that n then finally off to sweetdreams.. waking up in the morning to meano's missed call n jack's msg.. n so, the morning began.. then the usual college (boring).. which rolled over to the equally boring afternoon! oh yeah!! there was this wierd telepathy thingy with jack (n this had been going on for quite sometime now) so, some part of the afternoon was spent with jack! :) n then again back to my loyal n ever loving HIMYM n then ye saali zindagi :) *awesome movie, i havta say!* which then again brings me to the evening..where again nothing to do.. even the phone doesnt ring.. n so, i indulge in a bit of 'greetin' spree.. n surprisingly, im greeted back with some real prompt replies..almost making me wish for everyday to be a Valentine's Day!

n then finally its that time of the day (everyday) for which i wait upon with anxious baited breath.. n today, it din disappoint! it rocked! :-D Daddy Donkey made up for the whole non-happening day of mine! (when i was actually sulking and frowning the whole day thinking abt the royal feast that some kabab-mei-haddi was being treated to at dinner! that sonovabitch!) n the 'movie' ends with me also being (conveniently) transformed to a "donkey"! :-D *yee-haw!* n so, when i really call it "time" for the day, i can go back to the wonderland with a smile on my face.. :) coz, for some (obvious) reason, my Valentine's was special.. something i'd wanted it to be.. :) n well, sometimes, you do get, what you make plans for about.. (the other occassion was the new year's 2011) *touchwood!*

n with the last exchange on the day's updatings with jack, it was a happy jill's valentine too! :)

so, its gonna be back-to-normalcy kinda life again..

gnite..for another day :)

confessions--part2

yes.. this is again a confession.. n this time im not confessing to anybody.. because, i realised im not answerable to all those who desperately seek answers in all my doings and sayings..
this is more of me-stating-facts, as against 'confessing', per se.. but on the hindsight, maybe, this can even hold the merit to be passed of as some sorta "confession" indeed from my part.. (maybe those times n occasions, albeit a rarity, but nevertheless, an occurence, definitely, where im in a somewhat diplomatic state of mind n being..)

i refuse to be tied dowm.. n im FIERCELY independent.. yes.. a fact, of which i was always aware of.. and a fact which just got re-established ina more concretised manner today..n so i declare, that im not even apologetic for what im doing (or even done).. i value my "FREEDOM" far too much than anything else ever concievable.. thats priceless..my treasure.. my precious!

and im ever grateful to meano, who understood this..(love yah!) n im glad, that you at least realised that if i refrain from doing what i do, n give in to what others (read: some specific others) want me to do, then it just wont be me.. yes.. thats so very true.. n after a certain argument-cum-discussion-'obhimaan'-frustration-cum-watever else may, with *****, i'd almost decided that i wont be doing what i generally do (ref: my buzz).. meaning, no more "one-liners" that are generally and mostly "cryptic" to the people "reading" it.. and which acts as a major "cause of worry" for someone..n the result, i was restless yesterday.. the whole day.. i was practically numb! n the only thing that restored the lil bit of senses in me was that heartfelt remark from meano.. :) yes..that, for a change, really lit up my nyt! n made me realise the grave sin that was going to commit by foregoing my precious!

and so, for all, who think they should have "access" to me, this is a general statement like fact-of-the-matter:
this is how i am.. n this is how i will be..i've not n never ever considered till this date (and moment in time) to ever morphose myself into some other mould, which is "liked" n "appreciated" by someone of significant importance to me..if that "someone significant" has deserved that tag form me, it is purely on the basis of how that person is..the "true self".. and i expect the same treatment.. because, im very fiercely protective about my freedom.. i refuse to be tied down.. by any conditions-pre conditioned..

yes.. if the only word that comes in YOUR mind is "REBELLIOUS", then yes.. i would love to be called that! n i have no regrets.

(p.s. : this is my vent up feelings.. a lot has been going on inside me for the past few days, which kinda increased in its intensity in the last couple of days.. i needed a space to take it all out..maybe, the fulcrum might be that part, where my buzzes were forcibly dragged to controversy.. n yes.. i was pissed! thoroughly.. n i just needed one push to let this all out.. n so, this ones for you meano.. maybe, i just realised that even today, after all these days, there is still something that makes me hold you in that special regard..without even asking anything back..this is unfortunately just a "write-up-post" so i really cant make you "see" this.. but just for your kiddo's sake, imagine that im bowing down to you.. in gratitude..for purely taking me for what i am..willingly..thanks a bunch..*love*)

jigsaw (27.1.2011)

will you term it as mere coincidence? or do you think that there holds something more than just a coincidence in its occurence?

yesterday (n also, it being the last day of 'the year'), i was chanced to pass beneath the railway overbridge when a train was passing through.. i had my wish.. :)

and today, (being the first day of 'amother year') my path was intercepted twice by sai baba procession..n on both the occasions, at different locations!

so, is it just luck? coinincidence? cosmic conspiracy? or all these were just 'chance encounters'?

what do you say?

confessions--of a blabbering mouth! :P

ahoy there!! :-D n somehow, for once, the very christening of this blog seems perfectly apt!!!! "dilly-dally* coz, in spite of having so many things to write about, i end up doing what im acquiring mastery in--procastination!period.

so, confessions it is... not because, i wanna wipe my slate clean and something akin.. no.. no soul-searching in it either..its just plain n simple confessions..i say confessions because its involves certain doings of mine which was not supposed to be done..because it was given a "negation" status..but then, eventually i ended up doing.. n the fact that i suck in talking it out (courtesy: my rudeness n bluntness n brashiness!), i figured it'll be better if i write it down here n get the person(s) concerned read it out themselves.. n it has one biggest advantage.. n that is, by the time the person(s) concerned decides to 'confront' me, they would have already read this piece of shit at least twice (i say twice, because, im sure that they wont be able to understand it at one go..)n wont be so mad at me! (wishing that exactly something like this happens.. *fingers crossed*)

huh.. n the list dates back to last year.. (wow! i begin real back in time!)
circa :: dec'10.. a wierd bad-ass fight..n for once, i gave it all to chuhiya..she heard me out..n parted with a warning..she warned me of dire consequences if i cried! (gawd! she was scary then!)
hmm..well, im sholly chuhiya.. coz, later on that day, i cudnt hold the tears back when meano called..

circa :: jan'11.. i WAS sure excited!!! of a prospect which was only there in my dreams, was unfolding right in front of my eyes.. :) everything that i had dreamt of n thought of for the 'perfect' new year was happening.. n that was the best begining i ever had! *love*

circa :: omnipresnce *chuckle*.. well, it involves a certain specific code word.. the word, per se, is NOT a code to the general public.. in fact, the mass uses that word very randomly.. but for a certain couple of entites, they happen to signify a different world atogether.. :-P ummm...my sincere apologies if im not divulging the details of it.. this one's really special! :)

n lastly, before i sign it off...though it has nothing to do with MY confessions of any sort, but well, it sure can act as confessions of my open disgust!

it happened yesterday and a couple of days before yesterday..
circa :: a couple of days before yesterday.. it was evening.. around 5.30ish.. i was walking outside my campus, going for bislering (thanks to the coloured water availability) when this scene unfolded.. there was a man, in his mid-to-late 20s or at the max early 30s..he was striding half-naked, that too with his jeans halfway down his ass, n showing off his white jockey! he had his black tee hanging from his jeans(wierd!) n a pair of glares hanging from the same place.. he was also wearing another pair of glares..  he was a comical sight! trust me on that!!! i dunno abt the rest of the people on the streets at that particular time, who were (un)fortnate enough to witness this, but i sure cudnt stop myself from bursting out in a laughter! :-D hell!!!!

circa :: yesterday.. as if, the young fellow parading the streets half-naked was not enough, yesterday evening, again around the same time (i wonder, if it has to do somehting wth the "time"), this time, it was an old vetenary, sporting skin-tight black coloured vest n shorts (thankfully the shorts were not skin-tight!!ugh!)


n tell you, not a good sight those!

so, there goes my first lot of confessions.. saving the rest for the next time!!
ciao.