28.2.2011

"there will be a lot of mystery in your love life in january. and in all probablity you are currently involved in a passionate affair. but february shows the possibility of you getting tempted and blackmailed into a relationship, probably by a mysterious lover. however, march to may is a very romantic period and in the last week of april, you may fall in love while travelling. or will travel to meet your loved one. possibilities of love at the workplace are bright in may-june."
-dated 9th january,2011.

the first time i read it, i dint realise what it is supposed to convey.. reading it the second time over, i couldnt stop laughing.. and that induced me for a third read.. n i was gushing.. coz, some stuffs were (almost) accurate n some were hilarious.. n the prospective probablity and/or possibility of them occuring was all the more hilarious..
its two months down now.. n so i thought (due to certain building up of circumstantial situations) lemme just go back to it, again.

"passionate love affair" in january.. well, not very sure about that one.. but for some reason, this "february" is eerily accurate.."mysterious lover"--the identity is scary.. n im glad that "february" is over today.. n tomorrow onwards, i'll be looking at 'a very romantic period' march..

and as of today, there is some amount of indication of "travel" in the last week of april, so that again keeps the possibility of "in the last week of april, you may fall in love while travelling. or will travel to meet your loved one."

and the one thing to cheer me up in thae above stuff is : "possibilities of love at the workplace are bright in may-june" not because of the "love" aspect.. but because of the workplace aspect!

happy valentine's day

yeah.. Happy Valentine's Day :) technically its a lil bit late.. an hr past midnyt n into the next day.. but it can still hold true.. Valentine's, after all! coz, even with our saying vehemently that "everyday is a valentine's day", c'mon, you oughtta be honest on this one, we dun actually n really mean that n neither do we put that into practice everyday (literally speaking!)

n so, the above wishing n greeting n acknowledging holds true.. :) a lil delay can be considered in all the good spirits! :-D

n how it starts? well, before i get down accounting the details, one tiny (in)significant bit of trivia.. the starting n the finishing were (with) the same involvees! (confession: i made up this term..cudnt come up with anything else..my bad!) so, the starting..well, 13th feb,2011..2345 hrs.. n i so badly wanted to continue the "talking" for at least another 15 mins.. (n all credits to me that i actually managed to stretch it that far from 2315, when it first showed the signs of 'signing off!').. but that was not to be.. so, it was all me by myself..but ofcourse, nothing was stopping me from sending my first wish.. n so, it began.. a stark opposite of how it was just 365 days back! ;) n i had my HIMYM for company :) well, the phone did ring.. n i was not really very keen on that conversation.. so, a quick n polite wrap up on that n then finally off to sweetdreams.. waking up in the morning to meano's missed call n jack's msg.. n so, the morning began.. then the usual college (boring).. which rolled over to the equally boring afternoon! oh yeah!! there was this wierd telepathy thingy with jack (n this had been going on for quite sometime now) so, some part of the afternoon was spent with jack! :) n then again back to my loyal n ever loving HIMYM n then ye saali zindagi :) *awesome movie, i havta say!* which then again brings me to the evening..where again nothing to do.. even the phone doesnt ring.. n so, i indulge in a bit of 'greetin' spree.. n surprisingly, im greeted back with some real prompt replies..almost making me wish for everyday to be a Valentine's Day!

n then finally its that time of the day (everyday) for which i wait upon with anxious baited breath.. n today, it din disappoint! it rocked! :-D Daddy Donkey made up for the whole non-happening day of mine! (when i was actually sulking and frowning the whole day thinking abt the royal feast that some kabab-mei-haddi was being treated to at dinner! that sonovabitch!) n the 'movie' ends with me also being (conveniently) transformed to a "donkey"! :-D *yee-haw!* n so, when i really call it "time" for the day, i can go back to the wonderland with a smile on my face.. :) coz, for some (obvious) reason, my Valentine's was special.. something i'd wanted it to be.. :) n well, sometimes, you do get, what you make plans for about.. (the other occassion was the new year's 2011) *touchwood!*

n with the last exchange on the day's updatings with jack, it was a happy jill's valentine too! :)

so, its gonna be back-to-normalcy kinda life again..

gnite..for another day :)

confessions--part2

yes.. this is again a confession.. n this time im not confessing to anybody.. because, i realised im not answerable to all those who desperately seek answers in all my doings and sayings..
this is more of me-stating-facts, as against 'confessing', per se.. but on the hindsight, maybe, this can even hold the merit to be passed of as some sorta "confession" indeed from my part.. (maybe those times n occasions, albeit a rarity, but nevertheless, an occurence, definitely, where im in a somewhat diplomatic state of mind n being..)

i refuse to be tied dowm.. n im FIERCELY independent.. yes.. a fact, of which i was always aware of.. and a fact which just got re-established ina more concretised manner today..n so i declare, that im not even apologetic for what im doing (or even done).. i value my "FREEDOM" far too much than anything else ever concievable.. thats priceless..my treasure.. my precious!

and im ever grateful to meano, who understood this..(love yah!) n im glad, that you at least realised that if i refrain from doing what i do, n give in to what others (read: some specific others) want me to do, then it just wont be me.. yes.. thats so very true.. n after a certain argument-cum-discussion-'obhimaan'-frustration-cum-watever else may, with *****, i'd almost decided that i wont be doing what i generally do (ref: my buzz).. meaning, no more "one-liners" that are generally and mostly "cryptic" to the people "reading" it.. and which acts as a major "cause of worry" for someone..n the result, i was restless yesterday.. the whole day.. i was practically numb! n the only thing that restored the lil bit of senses in me was that heartfelt remark from meano.. :) yes..that, for a change, really lit up my nyt! n made me realise the grave sin that was going to commit by foregoing my precious!

and so, for all, who think they should have "access" to me, this is a general statement like fact-of-the-matter:
this is how i am.. n this is how i will be..i've not n never ever considered till this date (and moment in time) to ever morphose myself into some other mould, which is "liked" n "appreciated" by someone of significant importance to me..if that "someone significant" has deserved that tag form me, it is purely on the basis of how that person is..the "true self".. and i expect the same treatment.. because, im very fiercely protective about my freedom.. i refuse to be tied down.. by any conditions-pre conditioned..

yes.. if the only word that comes in YOUR mind is "REBELLIOUS", then yes.. i would love to be called that! n i have no regrets.

(p.s. : this is my vent up feelings.. a lot has been going on inside me for the past few days, which kinda increased in its intensity in the last couple of days.. i needed a space to take it all out..maybe, the fulcrum might be that part, where my buzzes were forcibly dragged to controversy.. n yes.. i was pissed! thoroughly.. n i just needed one push to let this all out.. n so, this ones for you meano.. maybe, i just realised that even today, after all these days, there is still something that makes me hold you in that special regard..without even asking anything back..this is unfortunately just a "write-up-post" so i really cant make you "see" this.. but just for your kiddo's sake, imagine that im bowing down to you.. in gratitude..for purely taking me for what i am..willingly..thanks a bunch..*love*)